saw 'shrek 2' today. good. better than one. the children didn't laugh a lot though. emily says they don't understand the ref's to pop culture. i think they're too young to know 'cats' and 'honey, i blew up the kid'. i think i picked up more references this time than last time :p

went to missions fair @ emily's church after church today. talked to lady at sim booth for awhile. she told me about the big need...ppl are ALWAYS needed...LOTS of ppl. i asked her about 1-2 year opportunities.

message @ church today...well i guess it's true but it kind of brought into question what i've been depending on these past few months. i'm sure God is still here. i need Him to work things out...the other day i realized, what i want is what He wants too. He can make it compatible w/ the other stuff He wants. my problems are hindering my spiritual growth though...i also realized it's like a new idol

sometimes i want to die (or a nicer way to put it is "go home"). but i know why He's not taking me...and yesterday or something another reason came to me...probably a better one :p anyway, one day this spoke to me:

"until i get there [heaven] He's working on me, He never leaves me, He lets me know that i am not alone in the darkness" -He, jaci velasquez sings it

one day i realized that (the quote), as well as a line from 'clumbsy' (chrice rice) is based on phil. 1:6. or i think it is :p and i've figured before, w/ what i believe God wants me to do (missions), He won't leave me like this forever.

yesterday i saw annie :) my friend..not the play :p though the play was very good :p

today (sunday) i saw febreeze @ church. had lunch w/ barry, josh, josh's parents, kwan. then went shopping w/ kwan and becca (from queen's). that was nice. today i kind of wished i went to queens... 'cos of stuff that bothers me..and i think 'cos spending time w/ kwan was good today (not that it's normally sucky :p ) ..and maybe 'cos kwan's queen's life seems so good...maybe 'cos of all the queens ppl/stuff i was exposed to today... FINALLY talked to steph!

josh's mom said that in texas there are mexican ppl who work in chinese restaurants. they speak cantonese/mandarin. i'd go there to find a husband :p well i don't know if i would care about whether he could speak chinese if it weren't for him being able to speak to my grandma...but i have other relatives that don't really speak english too... anyway i'm not really gonna go there to look for a husband :p at least that is not currently the plan :p

marks came out -- much better than i thought they would be. showed me God has not ditched me :p worried about work (starts on monday) but things will be fine -

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; Do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. - Joshua 1:9 NIV ..emphases additional :p

you know how in the Bible it says God was with people so what they did went well? that happened w/ school this term. w/ God i'll be fine even when i am going through problematic stuff...