this left me in awe though:
at nav's their doing a series bruxy did (at the meeting house) about God and various disciplines (sci, psych, soc, philo). (http://www.themeetinghouse.ca/sermons_search.php ..look for 'God in the grey matter'). two weeks ago was science. anthropologists believe that "the God impulse" is the most universal thing in the world. ecc. 3:11 says that God has set eternity in the hearts of man. in every culture ppl look for God (or something beyond). he also named 3 neurobiologists - an atheist, a theist and one who's agnostic - who all agree that it's natural to believe in God. when your right frontal lobe is stimulated you sense what most ppl call God's presence (like toast in the heritage moments). so we're basically biologically made to experience God. he also talked about how according to evolutionary theory we're supposed to be losing the parts of our heredity that are maladaptive. the God impulse is maladaptive (well if God doesn't exist). but the God impulse has been increasing.

joe boot's talk on wed. was good too... :)

smorgasboard:
i have no idea what this word means. olga says it might be of yiddish origin. anyhow, that was the name of "the party", i.e. our chilling party. it was fun..i met and talked to megan and...there were some funny parts :) i know someone from new liskeard! ...and someone from fort frances! and i'm sure most of you have no clue where those places are :p i do 'cos i worked @ hydro! ha ha!

i have my skates now. i wonder if they fit. i also have sprinkles :)
one of my dons lives really close to me in t.o.

should i talk about boys again? it's all everyone talks about now...well unless you're a guy, then you talk about girls...anyway i think i'm getting desperate. a bit over a year ago i realized i didn't want a boyfriend...but the combination of hook-uppers, pine-ers (that's you guys...no names mentioned...), the 4 couples @ fellowship i've found out about in the past 4 weeks (they're not new or anything..oh and there's the newly-engaged ppl), the results of other things that have been going on and the time of my life i'm in has resulted in wanting a boyfriend. i take it back, i'm not DESPERATE. but...well, not content. at the same time, i don't know what i want anymore... btw, when i say boyfriend, i usually mean something more along the lines of fiance...

i also need to figure out what i'm doing one of these days..in the summer...
a) waterloo: 3 courses (and possibly a lighter load in 4th yr if i lose my scholarship), p.t. job and hopefully campus ministry. though lately i've been wondering if working would take away from the extra time i'd supposedly have to do stuff on campus. and some ppl will be here in the summer.
b) away: spanish educational thing or missions. or both.
issues: i can go away anytime...hopefully for the rest of my life. i can only be here (w'loo) once...i could be a staff wkr when i grow up, but that's not the same. the other day i also realized, there aren't actually that many ppl (at iv) that i wanna stay in the summer for. oh and i guess there's the fact that i'm not really in good condition to go away right now (though it could be argued that i wasn't in high school either)

back to boys...i used to be more willing to surrender. i used to WANT to. bah. though i guess i never really did 'cos of...a situation. which i would've told (some of) you about if it weren't so far-fetched :p i'm questioning the amt of committment i used to have too...i remember there were some nights when i was praying or thinking or awake-night-dreaming and i was so confident that i was committed..but looking back and considering some things...anyhow, nobody knows what i'm talking about and you ain't gonna...
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anyway, i got to talk to ppl a bit that i don't talk to at fellowship.

i decided to go on thursday night :p we get 'til the cars leave to decide :p we were supposed to leave at 5:30 but didn't leave 'til at least 6...sooo i rushed for nothing.

we talked about boats. and Jesus. (duh) hee hee. Jesus in boats. and trust. we mapped out peter's faith journey.. and saw that trust is gradual. and we talked about WHEN he became a Christian..which was inconclusive. but i think his context is different from our's, 'cos back then Jesus didn't die on the cross yet... anyway kris was suggesting that our methods of evangelism may not be appropriate anymore... e.g. four spiritual laws, bridge diagram, sinner's prayer or something else which basically contains the same info. as it. (when you learn the history of how that stuff got created it sounds wrong..the beliefs presented in the four laws etc. aren't wrong, but why they were doing things that led them to making four laws is.) i dunno, oh i guess how *i* would use the 4 laws or bridge or whatever isn't really like those ppl who invented it. 'cos i still don't think anything's wrong w/ it. and you definitely HAVE to tell ppl those things for them to understand Christianity.

the retreat was pretty diff. from our peoples ones...i think maybe partly b/c the ppls ones tended to be about lordship. and to me we didn't experience the sharing we had at peoples -- not on the whole-group level anyway. and i guess the group size has to do w/ it...'cos our's was able to be more interactive...and we did more manuscript (Scripture) study-ish stuff. anyway, today i remembered what to do about one of my attitudes.

basically in 1st year i had gone to university thinking about how i was supposed to be a witness etc. but i found that i was hoping to meet ppl so that i could be a witness to them, not b/c i actually wanted to be friends w/ them. (but since i was scared to witness it didn't happen anyway). anyway i knew i needed to care about ppl. then i guess i forgot about that. so then today i remembered that the thing to do (the only one i knew of anyway) is to pray to have God's love and compassion... a few weeks ago one of my friends was telling me how b/c she had good friends who didn't know God -- ppl she cared about -- she saw how important it was to witness to them. oh today i also realized that part of my problem may be b/c i'm okay being alone...i don't need to go out all the time. SO spending time w/ ppl isn't normal...SO motives for spending time with ppl who i want to witness to have more to do w/ witnessing [when i interact w/ ppl i'm not raw-hoping-to-convert-ppl or something though. hmm i guess another thing is to focus on being like Jesus to ppl]

anyway..i liked retreat...OH we played mafia :p in the version they play there's a doctor...and we don't show our cards when we die.

the shower facilities were pretty good... yeah... i didn't go outside..the wind was blowing ALOT of snow into the air yesterday. and i didn't have snow pants. and i didn't bring lots of pants.. and it was cold.

p.s.- lindsey has always been really nice to me. (she does not read this) like talking to ppl.. well i guess she's just like that. so's jessica. i guess so's mike..from iv. actually we have at least four @ iv this term... (the others are cool too... :p )
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